Bismillahirrahmanirrahim and Assalamualaikum W.B.T
alhamdullilah today i woke up early and got to fulfill my responsibility as a Muslim :)
recently at school, ihtifal sukan dan ilmiah was held. this year i didn't participate in anything cause i thought well, maybe if i'm really going to change school, then i shouldn't be involve in anything :)
during one of that period, i felt happy, thrilled, excited and all that happy emotions cause the greatest thing in my life happened. i get to do what i really wanted and i really love. taking pics using a DSLR. alhamdulillah i felt really grateful for that awesome experience
a million thanks to Ustaz Wan Faisal and Ustaz Azuan Salimon :')
but as everyone knows, in life there will be trials from the Almighty. as for me, He had given me a really big thing to face.
one day, i was bored and decided to borrow ustaz Azuan's camera and luckily he allowed it. after half an hour, i felt tired and decided to return it. i saw him at the canopy and went there. but before returning it, i decided to take a few pics cause my friends asked for it and yeah i did. suddenly, "harok ah harok ! " i lift my head and noticed a girl smiling and pretending not to know anything. i ignored it. a few seconds later, "harok ah harok ! " again. that time it's her friend who said it and she did the same. pretending not to know anything. sape tak bingit kalau ade orang cakap camtuhh ? then i said to ustaz Azuan "nah ustaz. terima kasih :) " he said " eh ? amek la gambar semua acara !" i replied "takpe lah ustaz. orang bebual la :\" "huh? orang bebual? o.O" "ha'ah takpe la ustaz terima kasih ae :)" then i put it back under his desk.
damn i hate those girls so much. jealous cakap jealous. nak cakap nak. tak payah nak cakap aku nie harok ke ape la bhaii. kau nak aku bole bagi la. sikit pun aku tak rase bangga dapat pegang camera DSLR camtuhh. cume terharu ade la. sbb aku mmg minat photography nie. da lama mengidam nak benda camtuhh. but if u think u're so good at it and nak jgak bende tuhh, then mintak la. tak payah nak kutuk orang segala. kau cakap aku harok ? aku kerek ? aku lebih ? knp ae ? orang lain biase je. kau tu haa yg lebih nak kutuk orang segala. mmg tak bole ae tgk orang lain lebih dari kau ? u're not that perfect la. no one is. sumpah aku tak tahan ngan kau ngan kawan-II kau tuhh. mengutuk orang je kejenye. one day, karma will hit you back.
on to the next story .............
this happened yesterday.
i was talking and laughing with ema and the girls at dewan aspuri. suddenly, ustazh bayah came and was looking for me. she said ustz azuan has asked me to take pics of the ceremony. feeling confused,shocked and nervous i went outside and took the camera. my hands were shaking and my heart beats really fast the whole time. after the guest had given his speech, there were nasyid and i decided to take pics of 'em. felt really nervous, took only 2pics from the side and went out. suddenly teacher nas said "kifa, jngan amek gambar lagi. ustazah masrah tak suke." and i was like "oh okay" *smbil senyum :) felt a lil bit offended by her words but sokayy. maybe she noticed i didn't wore kain dalam as my baju outing was actually jarang sikit. after that, i met ustz Wan to asked bout the camera. then i told him "ustzh masrah tak bg amek gamba. dia kata dia tak suke :\" "huh ? ustzh masrah ? o.O" then came ustz Azuan. ustz Wan told him what i had said and the sentence that i cant really forget "ustzh Masrah tak bagi dia amek gamba. da knp. over betul" LOL xD kelakar la. tak sangka ustaz bole ckp camtuhh in front of me :D then i return the camera to ustz Azuan and let him be the real photgrapher :')
i cried after that. feeling really offended. i'm tired of all this. sick and tired of it ! i've made a decision and i'm determined with it. i want to change school. far away from those bitches. balik asrama nie ade rombakan dorm. pastu aku bole pulak satu dorm ngan diorang. pehhh ! nyirap ! bingit ! camne siaa aku nak hidup kalau dikelilingi musuh yg tak diundang ?! >.<